12/12/01

I guess you could say I was in a lazy mood today. I woke up late and slowly got ready, the rest of the school day had a lazy tone to it. Today was supposed to be a good day. First we had bishop's mass, which took up class time. Then us seniors had a long lunch with the Bishop. Everything was going okay until lunch time. The lunch was free so I ate as much as I could. I had two hamburgers and a hot dog, plus a full plate of beans. Then I went for ice cream, as usual I skipped half the line and then I held it up while I begged for more ice cream. Then when I sat back down, things started fucking up. Mark B was sitting next to me and thought it would be funny to put ketchup all over my shirt. It pisses me off how high school kids could do such immature things as that. It was really no big deal but it had pissed me off at the moment. As I was getting people to help clean it off, Susan's friends were trying to get me to come over so that Susan could talk to me. Obviously I knew that Carolyn told her and that she was trying to ask me to the dance. She finally got her chance to ask in the hallway but then we both ended up being late to english class. When school got out I went to my car and for some reason I felt the need to inspect it. That's when I noticed that someone thought it would be funny to try and scratch my car from front to back. That pains me so much to know that there is some coward out there who hates me so much that they would vandalize my car. Then again, they also must fear me a lot becuase they are too chicken to approach me and tell me in my face what I do that bothers them. Here I am, I mostly mind my own business and don't vandalize other people's stuff and I don't even do it if Im trying to get back at someone. I can't wait until high school is over because I'm tired of this foolishness and immaturity. I just hope that in college everyone is more grown up. I know that college scares me now because I'm afraid of what and who I will become there. I barely have any friends as it is now. Whats going to happen when I go off to college and lose the few friends I do have? I know it's going to be hard as shit to make new friends, it always is with me. Will I be the real me or will I put up another false image at college? I hope to be truthful, but then again, do I really wanna live that life? Who knows, I may get to college and be myself and I might end up making friends faster than rabbits reproduce. Why am I so concerned? Everyone makes new friends. Alright, well I'm getting blocked up, which means I'm tired and have nothing good to say, so Im going to go to bed.