12/13/01

The time has come for me to write about another rollercoaster type day of my life. Dad had his surgery today and it seems as though everything went well. Thats a plus. On the flip-side, a classmate of mine was missing today, the poor guy wasn't admitted to Duke and he flipped. Rumors were flying all over the place, but I think everyone said a little prayer and hope he didn't do something as stupid as kill himself. This happened to be a hot topic today among the students. Suicide. Every teenager has thought about it, including myself, but most of the people I know don't give it much thought. I personally believe that suicide will not solve anything, it just makes life harder on the ones you left behind. I also think of it as the coward's way out. I've tried to think of the worst scenarios I could be in and suicide was still not a choice for me. Hopefully my classmate will see that too and try to get his life back on track. As for the rest of my day, it was pretty much a typical day at school. However, I didn't see much of my crush, which is unusual. I also can't believe how close midterms are. I don't usually do real well on them, and this year they could very will be the deciding factor in my scholarship money. I hope that they are relatively simple so I can get the grades so I can get my car. I think right now in life I only have three things to look forward to: 1...my car, 2...my truck, and 3...getting to college and starting a new life. Mainly, I can't wait til college and I hope it holds many new opportunities for me. I need a second chance in life and maybe I will get it in college next year.