12/16/01

It has been three days since my last entry and a lot has happened since then. At school on Friday everything went pretty smoothly; the day was easy and there was lots of time to talk. Susan and I talked for a little while, we are probably going to go on a double date type thing sometime this week. After school however, I realised just how alone and bored I am in life. Cathy had to go to gainesville friday night and my few other friends were either in trouble or doing something I wasn't invited to. So on friday night I stayed home and sulked. Saturday I went and played football with corini and a few other guys...I was kind of under the impression that I didn't belong there. However, I had fun up until the point where I sprained my ankle. So on saturday afternoon I stayed home and nurtured my ankle. Saturday night was again a lonely night for me. All my friends were apparently invited to some birthday party that I again was not invited to. I guess I really am alone at this poin in my life. I have no special somebody and I don't have a close group of friends always at my hands to hang out with. In fact, I think if it wasn't for Cathy, I probably wouldn't get out much at all. I hate to think about it, but at times I believe that I hold on to her just to have someone close to hang out with. It seems as if I'm usuing her and I think I might actually be doing just that. That's really sad. I have to keep her happy and close to me so that I don't become a recluse, good job steven. Hopefully I 'll get closer with my friends and we can hang out more. I hate this feeling of loneliness and loserness.