12/19/01

Okay, first of all, my exams today were extremely easy. I didn't talk to Susan today but I did talk to Carolyn and it seems that she is still interested. Now that summarizes the morning. This afternoon, however, was a little weird. Ron and I had decided that we would lift at school with the football team. As we were lifting Coach D came up to Ron and made some remark about me to Ron. He told Ron to ask his "boy" (me) what the deal was with wearing Old Navy shit to church. He said I looked gay and everything. At first I was offended...because not all of what I wear to church is Old Navy stuff. Then when he said I looked gay, I got worried...do I really dress and look gay? I asked myself. I didn't get all upset because for one I knew coach D was just joking around and two, I knew it was his way of saying I dress nicely. Then a little while later when I was supposed to be spotting Ron, I found my eyes diverted to Nate, who was doing crunches. I guess I either looked for too long or it was just chance, but Nate caught me looking and made some remark. I was a little worried that he caught me looking, but he can't prove anything and I don't think he would try. In fact, I think he pegged me a long time ago. I just hope i'm not completely obvious to everyone. A few people who figure things out on their own is fine by me as long as they keep it to themselves. Most of them do and will. Therese however is a different story.