01/07/02

As I sit here in all my glory lemme explain how bad school is, and how much more depressed I become everyday. As I got to school this morning, everyone was saying hi and welcoming each other back. Well either everyone I knew was either mute, or I was deaf, or I was invisible because no one cared to come up to me and say something nice. Then on top of that they all seemed to be laughing at my hair because i'm trying a new hairstyle. When classes started I just sat in a sultry mood and didn't pay too much attention to the teachers, who insisted on jumping right back into the course schedules. I also realized that I'm a boring person or I'm just not important enough to talk to, because when we had time to talk in class i was ignored for the most part. I don't see what everyone's problem is with me. Am I really just the asshole that is just there and doesn't seem to go away. Shit, I bet most everyone at school wouldn't even notice me gone if I didn't show up to school. Shit, they probably wouldn't notice or care if I died tomorrow. I don't know where I've gone wrong but I'm paying for whatever it is I did. Everyday. Only 90 more school days, five whole months, and twenty lonely weekends.