12/20/01

Well, today was the last school day of the year. Which also means the beginning of our holiday break. I can't believe Christmas is right around the corner. I remember when christmas used to be the world to me, lately though I haven't been real excited about it. You know I've come to find that christmas and valentine's day aren't as fun when you are alone. In fact, to make this christmas more meaningful, I spent a good chunk of money buying christmas presents. I just hope it makes me feel real good to see the faces when the presents are opened. Anyways, back to today...after we got out today I ended up going to ihop with ron, wanda, and her crowd of friends for breakfast, in fact, it kind of resembled her birthday dinner at carrabbas. Well, I found that in that group of people, I'm just a friendly associate and nothing more. In fact, they probably wouldn't have noticed if I wasn't there. Later on I took Ron and Justin to the bowling alley with Adam and Joe, Randy and Jill were there, along with Stacy, Laura, Jacob, and little Crotch. That event was a little more fun and I felt a little more in place, sort of like I belonged there. At least Ron came, it seems we've been pegged as best friends by everyone else, so hey, we might as well act like the part. Seriously though...we have been hanging out a lot lately. Too bad I'm going to the Keys, it seems I'm going to miss all the fun this holiday season. Perhaps things like this is what keeps me from having a larger group of close friends. And since schools out, I'm not gonna have a huge social outlet over the break, so I'm kinda depressed about that, and also I'm gonna mis seeing my crush and I'm gonna be extremely lonely over break. Just another lonely holiday in the life of Steven.