01/04/02

I'm finally back in jville tonight. I can sleep in my own bed for the first time since christmas night. The reason its been so long since my last entry is because we went down to the keys and I didn't bring this along. Afraid that snoopy people would get their hands on it and read my private shit. Anywyas, the whole trip was both lonely and boring. I spent a lot of time in solitude and trying to do things which pleased myself. At the beginning, the weather was nice and I was outside a lot taking pictures or reading or jogging...which I did quite a bit of down there. Then I think on new years eve it started raining and stayed cloudy until I left down there yesterday. New year's was bad because not only was I lonely and bored but cathy called to remind me just how pathetic my new years was and how much fun I could have been having if if iwas here in jville instead of in the keys. On tuesday, everyone left except for mom and I. We stayed behind to paint the two bedrooms and to go to key west. Tuesday we stayed inside most of the day painting and watching FSU beat VT, then on wednesday we went to key west. It was lightly raining so we didnt get to see the sunset and the experience wasn't as good. but two objects were extremely striking. The first happened shortly after we got there: Mom had gone to Fat Tuesdays to get a drink and as we were leaving we ran into a family that my mother knows. Well the interesting thing was the son of the family...just a boy, probably about 11 years old. Either he was admiring me as a cool teenager or he was old enough to know what he likes and I was part of it because he was sneaking glances at me a lot and kind of smiling shyly when he got caught. The best thing was that his eyes were the most intense and beautiful eyes I had ever seen in my life. They were like see-thru brown mixed with green...too beautiful to describe in writing. He was just an adorable little boy...like to meet him in about 7 years though. After my mom talked to them for awhile, we went and bout me a good cigar and then we walked down duval street. We were just walking and checking out all the eye candy. Let me just say that there are a bunch of weird ugly people and gay people in key west. I smoked my cigar, we both bought hats and then we headed to watch the freaks. The second striking object showed up here as I was watching the chain guy. A couple came up and stood behind me...when I got a better look, the guy was tall, slender, and beautiful...probably one of the most beautiful persons, guy or girl, I have ever seen. If it weren't for the fact that he had a girlfriend, I would have thought that he was gay from the way he dressed. Anyways, we then went to sloppy joe's to eat and be entertained by pete and wayne who were so good, I wasted 20 bucks and bought their cds. The we went back to key colony and mom went to bed as I watched more tv. MTV's dismissed was interesting, they had a gay episode and the guy who gets to choose was so cute and straight looking/acting that I didn't believe he was gay. Anyways, thursday we drove to palm beach and went to abercrombie where I bought tighter jeans to replace the ones I got for christmas and then 4 new shirts and a jacket. It's all sexy to say the least. then we slept at grandma's and headed home today. Back to my closet, back to my one-true friend, back to my computer, back to my room, back to my journal. Back to my lonely, miserable life as I have made it. That's what happens when you lie and procrastinate I guess.