02/22/02

Today was just one of those days. I snapped at everyone who crossed me and I kept to myself the rest of the time. Maybe it was because I was anxious or nervous about tonite, I don't know. However, I should have seen all the bad omens beforehand. Not only did I get a referral today but the sky was ugly and the traffic was bad. Then after I got all pimped up and I'm driving to pick Nathan up, his friend calls and asks if I can give her a ride to Arlington. This made me feel bad for some reason. Anyways when I got to Nease, it was clearly obvious that I made a mistake. Nathan just wasn't my type and his friend Annie seemed to think I was hot. He wasn't ugly but he was too chubby and had bad posture. The biggest turn off, however, was the fact that he looked like a flamer and acted like one too. I fretted over nothing. Mom and I talked about me coming out and telling Dad. I'm still not sure what to do. The only thing is mom doesn't want it to go around school because she's worried it will affect Therese. I'm not totally disappointed about this blind date with Nathan because it opened me up and helped Mom come to a little better understanding. I hope that now if I find someone they will cherish me and Mom won't be so uptight. This however will probably be the last blind date I go on. I felt really bad because I didn't want to hurt his feelings and I was feeling bad because of the situation I put myself into. I think he's a pretty cool guy though and hopefully he will be able to cope with the truth. Well I'm on to big and better things.