Valentine's Day 2002

Valentine's day is probably the most commercialized holiday of the year. I can't say it is pointless because I know that eventually I will enjoy the holiday and see its meaning. However, in the near 18 years of my life, I can't remember a valentine's day where I actually had a valentine to hold and be close to. I would have to say however, that this year's has been one of the better ones and that is because of Nathan. He's the closest thing I have to a valentine and I really like him. Even though we haven't actually met, I think I would still like him unless he is just butt-ugly, but he doesn't appear that way in his picture. True I didn't get a ton of candy or anything but usually guys don't get much on valentine's so I'm not too bummed. The best part of the day was getting the card from Nathan. I almost wished I wasn't going to North Carolina this weekend so that I could go on a date with him. He seems great and everything, maybe a little feminine, but that doesn't bother me. What bothers me is that he seems to like sex a lot. Don't get me wrong, sex is cool, but for once in my life I want it to mean something. I want to take my time and build a solid relationship with him first. That way when we do if for the first time it will be awesome. Whoa, I think I'm jumping ahead here, we still need to go on our first date. It's funny, but I think I'm experiencing butterflies for the first in my teenage life. I know, pathetic right? But thats how I feel. I'm actually going to bed happy tonight. I'm going to school tomorrow on the supposed "senior skip day" and I'm going to walk around all happy and shit. I'm not going to let anyone or anything put me in a bad mood because I'm hopefully going to have a boyfriend soon and I'm going to North Carolina to have fun this weekend. The boyfriend can wait a week. If he likes me as much as he seems to, or as much as I like him, then he will wait. Well, I guess I need to shower now that he's called and said goodnight and I'll write in you on monday and tell you all about the trip.