02/13/02

I'm kinda getting lazy in my entries. I think its been two days since my last entry. I think monday night I was too upset to write and last night I was on the phone with Nathan all night. Today was kind of shitty. I was in a good mood for the most part because I was looking forward to seeing Nathan this afternoon when I picked Therese up from her softball game at Nease. Everything was fine until A-mod. In physics I hadn't done my homework and Sheldon decides to collect it. So now my grade suffers even more. Then at lunch everyone at the lunch table was making fun of me. Oh you're a boy scout. No one likes you. Your dad is a plumber. What's it like to have everything given to you? Ron pissed me off the most because he said that I was given his position sophomore year and that he was better than me. Then he goes on to say that they gave me the defensive MVP award and I shouldn't have gotten it. I rationalize his comments as being jealous but he needs to get off of it because I worked hard for that shit and no one can say otherwise. Then the weather was nasty, which is never good. I did sit with Cathy after school and talked about stuff. I told her about Nathan. But I shouldnt have because I don't know what is going on there. One minute he says and seems interested in me, he even bragged to a friend about me and showed her my pictures. then today he skips out on me and makes me feel like shit. I can't stand it. Anyways, I hope he calls tonight. I can't last through another shitty valentine's day without him at least talking to me. I also need to pack my gear for this weekend. Hopefully it will be fun and it will keep my mind off other stuff. such as being lonely, having no true friends, and nathan. Also today starts Lent and I'm giving up masturbating for lent. People don't think I'll last but I'm going to try and I hope I can do it. Well, anyways, those are my thoughts of the day.